my place

508 w Hill st, APT# 2
Champaign, IL 61820

There it is, thats my place. Going to be my place for 12 months. So send me mail! NoW! Beyotch!

Its sweet. there will be pictures eventually. Im updating from andrea's house right now. As i probably will be doing for awhile now. I know since i changed this website to password protected that there arent going to be many people frequenting it from outside my friend pool. But feel free to tell your friends about it. And as long as they dont work for my company, you can let them in on the name and all. I don't mind.

Don't really know how necessary it is for me to make a password for the site, but whatever, im to lazy to change it now.

Anyways. thats about that.

Oh i had a dream that it was the morning of finals, and i totaly didnt read or study anything.

i woke up scared ... really scared. ..

KOT i know i am.

HIJACKING Is THE s0xor

I am moving out today into my new place. I wont have any internet access at my place until i decide to pay for it. So this will most likely be the last update for awhile.

I can always be reached by email or cell. Don't know my cell? Email me: dante@error42.net

(Saul I was hijacked dood. Im switching to Opera once i get unhijacked.:/ )

I get my new bed at 12 today. cant wait.

later all

HIJACKING Is THE s0xor

3 days left

3 days left. Wednesday, Thursday, Friday (move in!), Saturday (bed arrives!).

Only a few days left in this hell hole. Oh man, can't wait.

I've started up drawing again. Sorta just something on the side, bought one of those drawing book things. Don't know why, just know why not. Kinda helps i think cause now i can do this if i got nothing else to do. Which can happen sometimes.

Tired. Sleep now. haha short post

Forgot to mention

Forgot to mention. I've been having this bad case of De ja'vu lately. Almost every other day I will do something, or there will be a moment where I feel that what I'm doing right then, I have had a dream about already in the past.

Today when I was signing the lease, being in the office wasn't triggering anything. But the moment the leasing agent slid the lease on the table towards me, it triggered a memory of the exact room and people in it, that I had had in a dream. In the dream I was signing for an apartment, but didn't have enough money to pay, so everyone in the room started to laugh at me and I had to run out of the office. When I was triggered of that memory from a dream, I suddenly felt a little self conscience, as if something was about to happen that would make me want to run out of the room, or at least something that would make everyone in the office laugh at me. Even had that emotional switch go off which made me very uncomfortable. I quickly though shook it off and proceeded with what I had to do.

Its weird. I am seriously beginning to wonder if I , or if people in general, have the ability to dream about the future. Of course this line of thought could lead into bigger discussions of reality. Hmmmm I think I will lay in bed staring out the window and ponder this thought.

Later

I signed the lease!

I signed the lease! I move in on Friday June 11th! Going to buy a bed to get delivered on Saturday so I can sleep at new place ASAP. Can't wait. I think I'm going to go the cheap way and buy a cheap futon rather than spend like 300$ on a bed that I will have a year and then trash at the end of that year

who knows maybe I will get another bed in august but for now I think all I need is a shit bed. I'm going to buy a nice comforter though. My brother had a sweet one that was like better than the actually mattress so it didn't matter where it was it would always feel good. That seems more likely considering moving around a comforter is easier than moving around an entire bed.

Right now I'm just chilling. I re-edited this site to include that password to protect any content on my website. Well to be more specific this BLOG content. Sure getting into it is easy for my friends. But lets say someone at work wanted to get in. They would have to know the answers wouldn't they? And if they asked for the passwords, id just kindly say "I've decided not to give anyone at work my passwords" hahah don't know how that's going to blow over but perhaps, it will never ever ever happen. I'm going to make sure no one else gets my email at work. I do have a new company email, but I'm not going to be giving that out to anyone. Seeing as how I'm only allowed to accept work related emails.

Same goes for my work #. My extention is for my clients and co-workers. Kinda sucks. But oh well. I still have my cell phone so you can always use that.

Only one more week in this hell hole apartment, and then ill be in my new one. I cant wait. The first thing I'm going to do is throw a party! ... well maybe not, seeing as how most of the tenants in this particular apartment complex are senior citizens(which consists of only 11 apartments, this is no new york city apartment building... well you will see when I get the pictures up) there was a similar apartment with a more younger crowd, but I figured old people are much easier to get along with and I wouldn't have to worry about loud music being played while I'm trying to get to sleep for work the next morning. My first apartment which I posted pics of awhile back, in Bloomington/Normal was awesome, but the atmosphere of the people living there was very college oriented so some nights it was very very hard to get to bed to get up the next morning. Loud music, people yelling, and talking, it was a kind of crazy place to be. Only to get worse as the summer would progress. The neighborhood I will be in now will be mostly older people. Some with families, and a more ... upper to middle class area. Well I think. Which is going to be good I think. Right now its the summer and just the beginning, that whole college crowd has gone away. But they will be back in September, and I think I want to distance myself away from it. Or at least have it within walking distance rather than ear shot from my bed.

The money situation isn't that great right now. But hopefully things will level out once I get my first pay check, which I still don't know when that will be. Right now I'm waiting on some money from the Government still and some paychecks from my last job. Hopefully by this coming Friday I will be in better financial standing. That computer I talked about is still going to be put on the back shelf for at least another month or two. Maybe I will be able to get something on my birthday? Heheh.

The roach situation for the most part has improved I think. They have been dying off alot lately. One of my roommates has acknowledge that they seem to be in fewer numbers. They aren't gone, though. And I don't think anything I can do, less of setting off some bombs/foggers will get rid of them completely. All I care is that they are few and far between until Friday.

On move day I plan on taking stuff out of my car and laying it out in the parking lot of my new place and inspecting it for Stole aways. I do not plan on encouraging the spread of this Hive into my new apartment. I will do whatever it takes to keep a conclave from being born in my new place. Rodents and insects beware, I will destroy you. Even if I have to put on my firebat uniform and go to town on the place.

Renters insurance. Anyone ever hear of it? I don't know what to think. I guess I will think about it more. Apparently if my place burns down, the landlord will not replace my stuff.. what a shocker. But if I get renters insurance with like State Farm or an insurance company like that, they would replace stuff. If anyone has any knowledge on that please email me or post the msg board (yes I know no one uses it). Also if anyone has any personal feelings toward AAA. I'm trying to decide if I should get AAA for my car. Geico has some sort of protection for that but I think getting direct from AAA which is far more established throughout the country, it might be a better idea. I definitely think I should get it before I go on any far off trips with my car. Although I guess we will see.

Mig is going to be in Michigan today I think. He wants to come down to my place and check out how things are, which I'm going to be cool with. Cept he is 3 hours away, and with a job, with 0 flexibility to take days off when I feel like, its a little crazy, but I'm sure I will work something out. Jamie, an old friend is coming back from Italy this week too. That will be fun. There is talk of going to either Indiana beach or turkey run. I cant remember which right now. Also there are plans in the making to go do some vacationing somewhere. Don't know what or where yet, but I'm sure it will be fun.

About coming back to new york city, (speaking of vacation) I don't know if I that will be anytime soon. I don't get my first vacation from my job for awhile right now. If anything such an event would not happen until August. But again, we shall see what we shall see.

I'm going to be getting my first dealers on Monday. These will be my personal clients. Sweet I cant wait. They wont be permanent though. Just kinda be temporary. I wont have my own "territory" till July 1st. I wonder if this is still like just their way of evaluating me, seeing if they will keep me or not. From what I can tell though, upper management sees something in me that they do not wish to let go of anytime soon. My constant drive to learn more and do more is of course giving those who require it, a good impression. I'm surprised that this company doesn't have more young college grads coming into the work force. (When I was down in Human Resources, I saw a list of people who are on a to be interviewed list... I wonder when I was being considered for my job, if I had a lot of competition, and really hard competition, or if I was basically the "pick" of the litter. Who knows. Don't want to jinx it.

Anyways I'll be around
Thanks Ethan for having me at your bar b q today, sorry I couldn't stay the whole time.
~KOT

I sign the lease on Saturday

I sign the lease on Saturday. 12 months. Move in on June 11th. Oh man that's crazy. So far all my apartments have been like month to month deals. No real commitments there. Now this one is basically a year deal. And if its good who knows, might be my place for a few years. We'll see. I'm a block away from this really nice park, and all the houses around are these huge Victorian houses. So its a nice neighborhood. But I hear if I head East on my street for about 10 miles, I can run into prostitutes. Good to know, good to know. Drove out to the ghetto part of town. Wasn't so Ghetto though, woodhaven was probably the same id say.

Walked a good amount of time today around campus, Univ. Of Illinois. Was really nice. I have never walked around Brooklyn College's campus, but I guess it must be pretty amazing if it beat out this one. (voted #1 campus a year or two back)

Been studying up on my car parts. Don't know what a differential really does or what the crank case does, but I know they exist and I know where to put them.

Had my first product meeting today and my first sales team meeting. Was interesting. Stuff I saw in those boring business videos during class, now I'm actually attending them. You know, wasn't so boring. Rather interesting. I don't have my accounts yet, but when I do, I'm going to sell the heck out of them. Going to have to read up on my text books about incentives and retail store ownership. My degree is actually going to come in handy. How about that?

1 week from tomorrow and I can move my stuff out of the Roach Motel. Cant wait. I'm wondering if I should go ahead and order the futon now and just have it delivered on the same day I move in or what. Well we will see. I have one week to think about it.

About a month ago I was all set on buying myself a new computer. A nice 2.x or 3.x P4. or AMD 64. Now though all that is on the back burner. My First payment for my joint is Rent + Security + Deposit and some stuff, gonna cost as much as that computer did. But oh well. I'll just start saving up on my paychecks and hopefully can afford the comp eventually.

If I haven't said so about my job, I am really excited about it. You see the people in my sales team right now are really good. But from what I hear around the office, hardly any of them think much of the internet. I am going to bring customization to the next level. When I start getting my accounts I'm going to do crazy research on them. Going to find out what the weather is like in their areas. Going to see if there is a parade or event going on in their city, going to go crazy and totally take it to the next level. When someone tells me "business is slow" I'm going to come right back and tell them what to do to rev it up. Probably going to hook up my laptop with mad research at home and then take it to work and do it up nice. Hopefully upper management wont care about me doing the extra effort and taking stuff home. Just got to assure them that I'm not taking home any secrets. Heheh company secrets and financial information. The business subject of the beginning of the 21st century, Corporate Ethics. And the ethics of the individual. Who would thunk id be near stuff like that. Well I guess it was inevitable, I mean I did get a BBA.

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I'm just glad I haven't heard any talk about Six Sigma or any one of those crazy Strategies that corporate offices seem to eat up and devour every time some one comes up with some idea to revolutionize Office politics or the "team" Strategy. Of course I'm not saying they don't work, I'm just saying I'm glad I'm not hearing about them. I always thought it to be lame when offices took the new business catch phrase or fad and play it to death until the original policies and components of the strat are completely lost and the employees forget what their original jobs were because they were too focused on something else.

Speaking of the word Team. I find it strange. Now if there is anyone from my job reading this, the following is just an opinion and I don't mean anything negative towards the company or how management runs it. ~~~~ Now my job, when I finally finish training and actually do what I am going to be doing for the next few years of my life, is going to be part of a "Sales Team". This sales team, as I understand it, has these goals to reach each month. Basically increasing percentages from previous quarters and years. Now within this "team" though there are other percentages to think of, the individuals percentages. Of course those are then computed to give the percentages, realized and ideal, for the specific department. But within the team there are contests. And people's percentages are actually posted. Winners or top players are of course rewarded, as they should be. But you see I have to wonder how this effects the "team". What I mean is, you see there are contests that go on from time to time. There will be a new product or new manufacturer, and the rep to sell the most of that item or product can win the contest. Easy enough right? And sure from a management point of view this sort of device helps create enthusiasm and drive to sell more and do better. But what else can it do? Well in a conversation with one of my co-workers (I shall refer to this person as Nohbody), I kinda saw the negative side of it. You see when you have any type of contest there is always that Darwinian aspect to it. The fittest, or best survive. So the players who are at the top, are usually the same from week to week or month to month or year to year. The people who aren't as good as the best but hold their own in their own right are sometimes right behind the leaders. But then you have the stragglers, who aspire to be great but for the most part cant reach the heights of their peers. And just like those thoroughbred winners at the top of the ranks every week, there are the few who are always at the bottom of the list each week, every week, every time. (now maybe those names aren't always printed, but the individual will always know who they are because they can see their own numbers and they can see the numbers of the winners) This co-worker I talked to, although maybe didn't have much confidence in his/her own abilities to start with, confided in me the fact that NohBody has come to feel like he/she would never be able to reach that high level of productivity. That Nohbody could never be "as good" as those top players. This of course is that negative side. The low ranks become followers and tend to do their job feeling less of their own abilities. You can hear it in their voice when they talk to their clients. In today's sales meeting one of the reps mentioned the high level of his/her performance. Was about a half million dollars for one month. At the exact moment after this person mentioned that, I glanced over at someone else and saw an expression on this person's face which was that of amazement. Like "wow that's high!" this expression was then followed by another expression, a saddened look. I took this one to mean "I could never reach that level" or to put it even more bluntly "wow I suck". Now I'm mentioning all this as purely observation. I'm not proposing any fixes or changes that need to be made. If anyone in the office is reading this, and think they may know the people I'm talking about, I'm not trying to point fingers. I'm not trying to demean or berate anyone. I'm just wondering at what point is the "team" a team. And at what point is the "team" conflicting with its own efforts of unification?


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Home is just over that mountain Chance!

Home is just over that mountain Chance!

The apartment hunt is 90% over. I found a place i like, and hopefully will be making my first payment this weekend or sometime this week. who knows. Once i do that baby is mine! cant wait! Really I cant wait to get out of this hell hole Im, currently in right now.

The apartment i want to move into is still being worked on. Some old dude moved out a while back and now they are redoing the tiles the floors the everything. Going to have a semi-brand spanking new joint. Wont have any furnishings but what else do i need than some newspaper. Livin it up hobo style nyc yeah yeah. Nah going to probably buy a futon sometime soon. Once i get settled. Cant wait cant wait. I can eat meat in my own home again! (Those who currently dont know im living with some indian guys right now and part of the deal was i wasnt going to cook meat)

Gosh i hope its soon i hope its soon!

Well got to go.. time to go to work.

work rocks! nervous though, but whateva handle that you know what im saying?

hahah

KOT