Saturday, September 11, 2004

Whats going on?

Whats going on?

I dont know.

Sunday, July 18, 2004

Cancer Benefit today

Went to a Cancer Benefit today. It was pretty cool. Went alone though, Andrea couldn’t make it cause of some car trouble. . .

It was a benefit thing for this guy and his family. Word is he got like a month left to go. Kinda sad, has like 6 children, all pretty young. They had an auction. Id have to say it was my first auction, and man was it kinda crazy. These two guys were all talking super fast, like... that Matchbox guy fast. Remember him? Like I think he was a Guinness Book fast talker. I didn’t participate in it though. Although I probably should have. They had some pretty sweet gift certs going out, like, spas and hotel stuff. But oh well. There was an apple pie. Nothing too special about it other than it was cooked by this old lady who was sitting at the table in front of me. The pie sold for $340. What's cooler is that the auctioneer said this sounds like a $420 pie when he was at $20. I was a little disappointed in the fact that the auctioneer didn’t call out to people by using their clothing. (i.e. $200 to the man with the funny hat! ... $300! to the man with the even funnier hat!)

Towards the end, everything that was being sold to eat, like cakes and soda and stuff was just given out for free, took me home a bunch of brownies and two cases of water bottles.. hope that was okay. I mean it would have all just gotten tossed anyways.



When I got home I wanted to listen to a song named "Forgiveness". Was in the mood, for it. I decided to break out my phone book thing where I have been keeping the phone numbers that my father gave me awhile back. For those who don’t know, my father lives in Washington state (last I heard) and I haven’t spoken to him in over a year, probably 2. I decided while listening to the song to give him a call. Some of the phone numbers were disconnected. There was one though, apparently the phone number of a co-worker of my grandmother in Washington State (father's side). She sounded really old, but apparently when I said I was the Grandson of my Grandma, she knew who I was cause she said "From new york?". I gave her my phone number so I guess whenever she gets it, she will either call or give it to my father. Last time i spoke to him he said after i was done with college that we should go on a road trip. Of course at the time i had plans to move out to an entirely other state, never told him though. Eventually I moved and havent spoken to him since.

Line in the song says "Let it fucking go why dont you". Sure why not, is what I say.

bought some groceries, and two pens. The pens cost 3.50. They better be darn good cause i'll be upset if they arent. I mean i get free pens at work. But they suck. So i figured if this would improve the way my memos look when i have to hand write them then .. it is worth it . eh?

Anyways Later ya'll
KOT

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

I was in a bunker

I was in a bunker. Yesterday around 3pm while at work and on break, we were talking about how weather. and how I am a little fearful of tornados. Being I'm on the north peak or tornado ally, I will most likely get to experience one sometime. Anyways we notice that it is really nasty looking outside. Someone in the break room mentions that they were on the phone with a client who had just spoken to our major competitor which happens to be in the same city, and that competitor a few minutes ago just went into their shelters. Which was weird cause you'd think if one business was doing it then other businesses should do it as well. well... 2 minutes after this news was talked about, we heard the tornado sirens go off. 10 seconds after that, a broadcast over the PA for us to go to our designated tornado shelters. Which I thought was a little crazy. The department floor cleared out in like seconds. And everyone was crammed into a few rooms and bunkers. It lasted for about 30 minutes. After which we went back to work....

of course 10 minutes in being back to our seats, another PA announcement comes on telling us to go back to our shelters.

Eventually while in the shelter, my time is up for the day, and I got a movie to go see. Had plans to go see anchorman with Andrea and some friends. So I get a little itchy to get the heck out of there. But I've never been in a tornado shelter before nor have I ever had to worry about there being a tornado outside. Some people made light of my inquiries while in the shelter. "Like is this normal" ... "What happens next"... yadda yadda.

I eventually say I got to go and make a break for my car. The sky when I leave the building is amazingly beautifully clear. I can see blue sky and very few clouds. ... Then when I turned around... Nothing but black... Lightning .... And what would seem to me to be the worst looking storm I have ever seen over a city. ... I then decided to turn around because the view was much better with all that behind me.

Things are going okay. I finally got Cable Modem, so I can now check email and make purchases again. Bought something yesterday from NewEgg.com. don't know if this good or bad. Rent got paid and bank account looks alright. Hopefully it will look better next pay day.

I have taken pictures of the new apartment and things and will be posting them up when I get the chance. Doing editing jobs and web stuff is a little difficult when doing it on a laptop. Kinda get frustrated at little things, like the size of keyboard and lack of speed, er its an old laptop.

Anyways time to go to work and make some money

KOT

Sunday, July 4, 2004

HAPPY 4th of JULY!

(Pic: Cloe, Andi's new cat saluting the flag)
HAPPY 4th of JULY!

Just spent the night with Andrea looking at fireworks. Times is rough. I've probably said it before. But I fear my expenses are matching my in flows. Which sux2beme cause then IM not retaining anything. I guess I will know in at least 2 more months what's going on with my money situation. I blame any low earnings on the fact that I just moved into a new place so I'm spending more on things that I only need to purchase once. Like the security deposit on my apartment, furniture like a huge bed and tables and chairs. Hopefully after 2 months I wont have to be spending as much as I have been these past few weeks and things will actually look more on the plus side. My job, although I'm loving it, isn't really paying much right now. Hopefully some raises will eventually kick in and I'll be a little bit more set.

On a side note, my brother just got a job. And he is getting paid 40/per hour. Which is pretty kick ass.

So things are going alright. Other than my whole money issue, its okay. Still worried about my car and all. Its running fine, but with it being my only means of transportation, I constantly worry about it. I don't have a new mechanic yet out here and I think id feel much better if I did have one. Give it a check up every once in awhile. Shelling 50 to 100 just so I could be told "She's running good". Kinda eases any worries, even if it may be a waste of cash.

Went up to Chicago recently, for something called the "taste of Chicago". It was fun. Never been to Chicago till this time. And I must say, it really didn't, excite me. Like it didn't do anything for me. I guess maybe I didn't see very much of it. But as far as land marks and tourist attractions go, there wasn't really anything to ohhh about. I don't know why but I always thought that the Sears Tower, was all nice and shiney like our crystal's building in NY. But its really this black faced plain old tower. Marvel? I think not. Took a boat ride, similar to our "circle line" in NYC. Was nice, water was ALOT cleaner I thought. Hmmmm although I was out in the water, and there was a barrier reef, I just realized, that when I was on that boat, I thought I was out in the ocean, but I realize, I was just on a really big lake. Heh, go figure.

The LOOP, which is the train station out in Chicago, wasn't all that at all. I was hoping for something a little bit better, but actually it was a lot less. Not really all that appealing to look at actually. Those new trains we got running up and down the Manhattan lines are much better. But I must admit the recorded voice on the LOOP is a lot more pleasant to listen to. Ethan had told me that they call it the LOOP cause its a train that goes in a large circle. But that left me thinking it was just some lame ass circle like the Disney world monorail. Actually the LOOP has a loop that circles the main part of Chicago, DOWNTOWN, and then separate trains break off into several directions spanning the most populated parts of the city (much like a firework, if you can imagine that shoots off in separate directions from its center). But leaving a lot of area to fend for themselves on buses for Public transportation. I said it before, and I'll say it again, you never really do realize how convenient the MTA is when you don't have it anymore to get you places. Incidentally chicago's name for the system is CTA. Can we say posers? And they have this lame ass version of the Metrocard, which really isn't all that aesthetically pleasing. Just a plain piece of plastic. Someone needs to tell this CTA that these cards are prime advertising space, like our metrocards have.

I have some new pictures of my NEW apartment that I shall be posting shortly. Don't know when though. With the lack of a really good computer and a fast connection (currently on dial up at my girlfriend's place) its kinda difficult to get anything computer/internet related done.

Don't know what else to say right now, I'll be back sometime soon. Cable modem should be hooked up by next weekend. So I should be updating and actually be back on AIM by next weekend.

Check you all later
Keep on Trucking
Dante

Monday, June 14, 2004

my place

508 w Hill st, APT# 2
Champaign, IL 61820

There it is, thats my place. Going to be my place for 12 months. So send me mail! NoW! Beyotch!

Its sweet. there will be pictures eventually. Im updating from andrea's house right now. As i probably will be doing for awhile now. I know since i changed this website to password protected that there arent going to be many people frequenting it from outside my friend pool. But feel free to tell your friends about it. And as long as they dont work for my company, you can let them in on the name and all. I don't mind.

Don't really know how necessary it is for me to make a password for the site, but whatever, im to lazy to change it now.

Anyways. thats about that.

Oh i had a dream that it was the morning of finals, and i totaly didnt read or study anything.

i woke up scared ... really scared. ..

KOT i know i am.

Saturday, June 12, 2004

HIJACKING Is THE s0xor

I am moving out today into my new place. I wont have any internet access at my place until i decide to pay for it. So this will most likely be the last update for awhile.

I can always be reached by email or cell. Don't know my cell? Email me: dante@error42.net

(Saul I was hijacked dood. Im switching to Opera once i get unhijacked.:/ )

I get my new bed at 12 today. cant wait.

later all

HIJACKING Is THE s0xor

Tuesday, June 8, 2004

3 days left

3 days left. Wednesday, Thursday, Friday (move in!), Saturday (bed arrives!).

Only a few days left in this hell hole. Oh man, can't wait.

I've started up drawing again. Sorta just something on the side, bought one of those drawing book things. Don't know why, just know why not. Kinda helps i think cause now i can do this if i got nothing else to do. Which can happen sometimes.

Tired. Sleep now. haha short post

Saturday, June 5, 2004

Forgot to mention

Forgot to mention. I've been having this bad case of De ja'vu lately. Almost every other day I will do something, or there will be a moment where I feel that what I'm doing right then, I have had a dream about already in the past.

Today when I was signing the lease, being in the office wasn't triggering anything. But the moment the leasing agent slid the lease on the table towards me, it triggered a memory of the exact room and people in it, that I had had in a dream. In the dream I was signing for an apartment, but didn't have enough money to pay, so everyone in the room started to laugh at me and I had to run out of the office. When I was triggered of that memory from a dream, I suddenly felt a little self conscience, as if something was about to happen that would make me want to run out of the room, or at least something that would make everyone in the office laugh at me. Even had that emotional switch go off which made me very uncomfortable. I quickly though shook it off and proceeded with what I had to do.

Its weird. I am seriously beginning to wonder if I , or if people in general, have the ability to dream about the future. Of course this line of thought could lead into bigger discussions of reality. Hmmmm I think I will lay in bed staring out the window and ponder this thought.

Later

I signed the lease!

I signed the lease! I move in on Friday June 11th! Going to buy a bed to get delivered on Saturday so I can sleep at new place ASAP. Can't wait. I think I'm going to go the cheap way and buy a cheap futon rather than spend like 300$ on a bed that I will have a year and then trash at the end of that year

who knows maybe I will get another bed in august but for now I think all I need is a shit bed. I'm going to buy a nice comforter though. My brother had a sweet one that was like better than the actually mattress so it didn't matter where it was it would always feel good. That seems more likely considering moving around a comforter is easier than moving around an entire bed.

Right now I'm just chilling. I re-edited this site to include that password to protect any content on my website. Well to be more specific this BLOG content. Sure getting into it is easy for my friends. But lets say someone at work wanted to get in. They would have to know the answers wouldn't they? And if they asked for the passwords, id just kindly say "I've decided not to give anyone at work my passwords" hahah don't know how that's going to blow over but perhaps, it will never ever ever happen. I'm going to make sure no one else gets my email at work. I do have a new company email, but I'm not going to be giving that out to anyone. Seeing as how I'm only allowed to accept work related emails.

Same goes for my work #. My extention is for my clients and co-workers. Kinda sucks. But oh well. I still have my cell phone so you can always use that.

Only one more week in this hell hole apartment, and then ill be in my new one. I cant wait. The first thing I'm going to do is throw a party! ... well maybe not, seeing as how most of the tenants in this particular apartment complex are senior citizens(which consists of only 11 apartments, this is no new york city apartment building... well you will see when I get the pictures up) there was a similar apartment with a more younger crowd, but I figured old people are much easier to get along with and I wouldn't have to worry about loud music being played while I'm trying to get to sleep for work the next morning. My first apartment which I posted pics of awhile back, in Bloomington/Normal was awesome, but the atmosphere of the people living there was very college oriented so some nights it was very very hard to get to bed to get up the next morning. Loud music, people yelling, and talking, it was a kind of crazy place to be. Only to get worse as the summer would progress. The neighborhood I will be in now will be mostly older people. Some with families, and a more ... upper to middle class area. Well I think. Which is going to be good I think. Right now its the summer and just the beginning, that whole college crowd has gone away. But they will be back in September, and I think I want to distance myself away from it. Or at least have it within walking distance rather than ear shot from my bed.

The money situation isn't that great right now. But hopefully things will level out once I get my first pay check, which I still don't know when that will be. Right now I'm waiting on some money from the Government still and some paychecks from my last job. Hopefully by this coming Friday I will be in better financial standing. That computer I talked about is still going to be put on the back shelf for at least another month or two. Maybe I will be able to get something on my birthday? Heheh.

The roach situation for the most part has improved I think. They have been dying off alot lately. One of my roommates has acknowledge that they seem to be in fewer numbers. They aren't gone, though. And I don't think anything I can do, less of setting off some bombs/foggers will get rid of them completely. All I care is that they are few and far between until Friday.

On move day I plan on taking stuff out of my car and laying it out in the parking lot of my new place and inspecting it for Stole aways. I do not plan on encouraging the spread of this Hive into my new apartment. I will do whatever it takes to keep a conclave from being born in my new place. Rodents and insects beware, I will destroy you. Even if I have to put on my firebat uniform and go to town on the place.

Renters insurance. Anyone ever hear of it? I don't know what to think. I guess I will think about it more. Apparently if my place burns down, the landlord will not replace my stuff.. what a shocker. But if I get renters insurance with like State Farm or an insurance company like that, they would replace stuff. If anyone has any knowledge on that please email me or post the msg board (yes I know no one uses it). Also if anyone has any personal feelings toward AAA. I'm trying to decide if I should get AAA for my car. Geico has some sort of protection for that but I think getting direct from AAA which is far more established throughout the country, it might be a better idea. I definitely think I should get it before I go on any far off trips with my car. Although I guess we will see.

Mig is going to be in Michigan today I think. He wants to come down to my place and check out how things are, which I'm going to be cool with. Cept he is 3 hours away, and with a job, with 0 flexibility to take days off when I feel like, its a little crazy, but I'm sure I will work something out. Jamie, an old friend is coming back from Italy this week too. That will be fun. There is talk of going to either Indiana beach or turkey run. I cant remember which right now. Also there are plans in the making to go do some vacationing somewhere. Don't know what or where yet, but I'm sure it will be fun.

About coming back to new york city, (speaking of vacation) I don't know if I that will be anytime soon. I don't get my first vacation from my job for awhile right now. If anything such an event would not happen until August. But again, we shall see what we shall see.

I'm going to be getting my first dealers on Monday. These will be my personal clients. Sweet I cant wait. They wont be permanent though. Just kinda be temporary. I wont have my own "territory" till July 1st. I wonder if this is still like just their way of evaluating me, seeing if they will keep me or not. From what I can tell though, upper management sees something in me that they do not wish to let go of anytime soon. My constant drive to learn more and do more is of course giving those who require it, a good impression. I'm surprised that this company doesn't have more young college grads coming into the work force. (When I was down in Human Resources, I saw a list of people who are on a to be interviewed list... I wonder when I was being considered for my job, if I had a lot of competition, and really hard competition, or if I was basically the "pick" of the litter. Who knows. Don't want to jinx it.

Anyways I'll be around
Thanks Ethan for having me at your bar b q today, sorry I couldn't stay the whole time.
~KOT

Thursday, June 3, 2004

I sign the lease on Saturday

I sign the lease on Saturday. 12 months. Move in on June 11th. Oh man that's crazy. So far all my apartments have been like month to month deals. No real commitments there. Now this one is basically a year deal. And if its good who knows, might be my place for a few years. We'll see. I'm a block away from this really nice park, and all the houses around are these huge Victorian houses. So its a nice neighborhood. But I hear if I head East on my street for about 10 miles, I can run into prostitutes. Good to know, good to know. Drove out to the ghetto part of town. Wasn't so Ghetto though, woodhaven was probably the same id say.

Walked a good amount of time today around campus, Univ. Of Illinois. Was really nice. I have never walked around Brooklyn College's campus, but I guess it must be pretty amazing if it beat out this one. (voted #1 campus a year or two back)

Been studying up on my car parts. Don't know what a differential really does or what the crank case does, but I know they exist and I know where to put them.

Had my first product meeting today and my first sales team meeting. Was interesting. Stuff I saw in those boring business videos during class, now I'm actually attending them. You know, wasn't so boring. Rather interesting. I don't have my accounts yet, but when I do, I'm going to sell the heck out of them. Going to have to read up on my text books about incentives and retail store ownership. My degree is actually going to come in handy. How about that?

1 week from tomorrow and I can move my stuff out of the Roach Motel. Cant wait. I'm wondering if I should go ahead and order the futon now and just have it delivered on the same day I move in or what. Well we will see. I have one week to think about it.

About a month ago I was all set on buying myself a new computer. A nice 2.x or 3.x P4. or AMD 64. Now though all that is on the back burner. My First payment for my joint is Rent + Security + Deposit and some stuff, gonna cost as much as that computer did. But oh well. I'll just start saving up on my paychecks and hopefully can afford the comp eventually.

If I haven't said so about my job, I am really excited about it. You see the people in my sales team right now are really good. But from what I hear around the office, hardly any of them think much of the internet. I am going to bring customization to the next level. When I start getting my accounts I'm going to do crazy research on them. Going to find out what the weather is like in their areas. Going to see if there is a parade or event going on in their city, going to go crazy and totally take it to the next level. When someone tells me "business is slow" I'm going to come right back and tell them what to do to rev it up. Probably going to hook up my laptop with mad research at home and then take it to work and do it up nice. Hopefully upper management wont care about me doing the extra effort and taking stuff home. Just got to assure them that I'm not taking home any secrets. Heheh company secrets and financial information. The business subject of the beginning of the 21st century, Corporate Ethics. And the ethics of the individual. Who would thunk id be near stuff like that. Well I guess it was inevitable, I mean I did get a BBA.

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I'm just glad I haven't heard any talk about Six Sigma or any one of those crazy Strategies that corporate offices seem to eat up and devour every time some one comes up with some idea to revolutionize Office politics or the "team" Strategy. Of course I'm not saying they don't work, I'm just saying I'm glad I'm not hearing about them. I always thought it to be lame when offices took the new business catch phrase or fad and play it to death until the original policies and components of the strat are completely lost and the employees forget what their original jobs were because they were too focused on something else.

Speaking of the word Team. I find it strange. Now if there is anyone from my job reading this, the following is just an opinion and I don't mean anything negative towards the company or how management runs it. ~~~~ Now my job, when I finally finish training and actually do what I am going to be doing for the next few years of my life, is going to be part of a "Sales Team". This sales team, as I understand it, has these goals to reach each month. Basically increasing percentages from previous quarters and years. Now within this "team" though there are other percentages to think of, the individuals percentages. Of course those are then computed to give the percentages, realized and ideal, for the specific department. But within the team there are contests. And people's percentages are actually posted. Winners or top players are of course rewarded, as they should be. But you see I have to wonder how this effects the "team". What I mean is, you see there are contests that go on from time to time. There will be a new product or new manufacturer, and the rep to sell the most of that item or product can win the contest. Easy enough right? And sure from a management point of view this sort of device helps create enthusiasm and drive to sell more and do better. But what else can it do? Well in a conversation with one of my co-workers (I shall refer to this person as Nohbody), I kinda saw the negative side of it. You see when you have any type of contest there is always that Darwinian aspect to it. The fittest, or best survive. So the players who are at the top, are usually the same from week to week or month to month or year to year. The people who aren't as good as the best but hold their own in their own right are sometimes right behind the leaders. But then you have the stragglers, who aspire to be great but for the most part cant reach the heights of their peers. And just like those thoroughbred winners at the top of the ranks every week, there are the few who are always at the bottom of the list each week, every week, every time. (now maybe those names aren't always printed, but the individual will always know who they are because they can see their own numbers and they can see the numbers of the winners) This co-worker I talked to, although maybe didn't have much confidence in his/her own abilities to start with, confided in me the fact that NohBody has come to feel like he/she would never be able to reach that high level of productivity. That Nohbody could never be "as good" as those top players. This of course is that negative side. The low ranks become followers and tend to do their job feeling less of their own abilities. You can hear it in their voice when they talk to their clients. In today's sales meeting one of the reps mentioned the high level of his/her performance. Was about a half million dollars for one month. At the exact moment after this person mentioned that, I glanced over at someone else and saw an expression on this person's face which was that of amazement. Like "wow that's high!" this expression was then followed by another expression, a saddened look. I took this one to mean "I could never reach that level" or to put it even more bluntly "wow I suck". Now I'm mentioning all this as purely observation. I'm not proposing any fixes or changes that need to be made. If anyone in the office is reading this, and think they may know the people I'm talking about, I'm not trying to point fingers. I'm not trying to demean or berate anyone. I'm just wondering at what point is the "team" a team. And at what point is the "team" conflicting with its own efforts of unification?


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Home is just over that mountain Chance!

Home is just over that mountain Chance!

The apartment hunt is 90% over. I found a place i like, and hopefully will be making my first payment this weekend or sometime this week. who knows. Once i do that baby is mine! cant wait! Really I cant wait to get out of this hell hole Im, currently in right now.

The apartment i want to move into is still being worked on. Some old dude moved out a while back and now they are redoing the tiles the floors the everything. Going to have a semi-brand spanking new joint. Wont have any furnishings but what else do i need than some newspaper. Livin it up hobo style nyc yeah yeah. Nah going to probably buy a futon sometime soon. Once i get settled. Cant wait cant wait. I can eat meat in my own home again! (Those who currently dont know im living with some indian guys right now and part of the deal was i wasnt going to cook meat)

Gosh i hope its soon i hope its soon!

Well got to go.. time to go to work.

work rocks! nervous though, but whateva handle that you know what im saying?

hahah

KOT

Sunday, May 30, 2004

Fighting Back.

Several hundred dead. They keep coming. I'm fighting them off as many as I can. I thought I had them beat. On the morning rise not a single one in sight. Then around 18 hundred hours. One was spotted. A scout perhaps. Soon there were more. I fought back valiantly. Maybe about 20 of them died. There will be more. We'll see how long they will last. Soon they shall all perish......
~Zerg Defense Infantry

Going to look at an apartment tomorrow. This one is in a great spot. I hope the insides are good. If its worth it then I might just be like, give me a pen. This time though I'm checking all drawers and cabinets. I'm going to inspect every apartment like Consumer Affairs and the DEP inspected Chinkies. Any droppings or dead carcasses are a sign of past battles. And I don't want to be having that.

Time's have been rough. My bank account just seems to be getting lower and lower. Not a single deposit for about 3 weeks, maybe more. Hopefully there will be a pay check coming sometime soon. Who knows. We will see what happens. I hope I get one soon. Then i can start measuring my expenses against real numbers.

anyways ill be back

Friday, May 28, 2004

What up Wyoming

What up Wyoming! The Internet. I never get to use it much. So this update is probably going to the only one for awhile. Sux!

My job Rox0rs! I've been training all this week, and I just finished the first "phase" of my training. My trainer Shannon said I was doing pretty good. (Hi Shannon!) She's cool. I'm going to sell toys!... and stuff. On tuesday I start phase II of my training!

My new apartment sux a lot! My actual room is alright. My Roommates are okay. But ... Seriously. The bathroom was horrible! The kitchen was and is infested with roaches! I just laid out some Combat Gel today, and sprayed around some raid. The place kinda smells like insecticide, I doubt my roommates would notice. The router, for the Cable is set on the floor right by this cabinet in the kitchen. And yeah as always the router is something that is always on. Which means what? It is very warm. Cause of the constant flow of electricity. Anyone know where I'm going with this? The router is freaking gross, at any given moment you can see about 5 roaches crawling on top of it, and several of them crawling in and out of them. I live in Joe's apartment. I am Joe. And they don't talk. They aren't friendly. At they wont be building any parks for me. They are basically keeping me away from the kitchen, I shiver when ever I see them. Hopefully my insect killing efforts are going to annihilate enough of them to a point where I wouldn't mind buying any food. For now I'm eating out, all the time, every time. I just cant even fathom eating or putting any food in that kitchen.

I'm going to go check out some more apartments this coming week. Hopefully I can find something I like and I think I can afford. Either way for now I'm going to have to suffer in Joe's apartment. Oh well.

Later. Keep on trucking

Sunday, May 23, 2004

my new job

Its Sunday, and tomorrow I start my new job. I don't know what's going on with my living situation right now. I'm feeling like I'm going to be making rash decisions without carefully thought. But oh well, I'm sure it will all work itself out in the end.

I created a excel worksheet, for budgeting purposes. Much like Bobby's BPL MODEL, which saved my life during Business Policy (this is a class). Basically what it comes down to, is how much am I willing to save or not save at the end of the month. As long as I don't go into the red at the end of the month, I'm sorta fine. After working out the numbers, its something like, do I want to save $600 at the end of the month or do I want to save $400? And when I look at it Annually, well, one choice looks even more undesirable. See the main difference is privacy and distance. At saving $600 a month I will be having roommates, be living quite far (not as far as I am now), but my liabilities are shared among roommates. At saving $400 a month, I have a one bedroom apartment, by myself, complete privacy, I will live either 1 to 3 miles away from work, but I have full liability for the apartment, all costs are on me.

After some rational and irrational thought I think I'm going to go for the $600 for now. Being that I haven't even started my job and don't know how much I will actually be earning every week, all the numbers in my Budget Model are estimates. And hopefully the difference between my Estimates and Actualls won't be that big. I see a standard deviation of about $50. Watch it be more like $300!

The first apartment I took was an easy choice. This one is getting all complicated.

I will be changing the format of this front page soon. I want to add a ROOMMATE needed sign on the right side splitting this site down the middle and justifying to the left. Once I get a computer that can stand some heavy picture editing and web page making I will do it. Incidentally, if you happen to come across this website and are thinking about moving to Champaign, send me an email if you are looking for a place.

Saturday, May 15, 2004

I GOT A JOB!

I GOT A JOB!

Well okay I guess I already had one but ... I GOT ANOTHER JOB! Yay for me. What will I be doing you ask? Well I will be selling toys! Not not Yo-yos and barbies at Toys R Us. They are actually going to be Radio Controlled ... stuff... to retail stores. Im going to be part of the Channel Distribution thing they talked about in school. Im that one step after manufacturer and right before retailer. Im part of a distribution system. Oh for joy.

so now what does that mean for the future of Dante? Hmmm dont know really. The job is one hour away from where i currently live, so Im probably going to be moving out once I have settled things enough for me to make the move. Bank accounts, change of addresses, and so forth. Hope my car insurance doesn't go up. Last time I moved in this state it went up 15 bucks. Maybe this move will bring it down rather than up.

So with this new job I must say that things are moving along quite well. At first I was very disheartened and very worrisome of what the hell I was doing. But with this on the horizon, I think things are going to be "al'ree".

I'll try to update as much as possible. Of course, I say this knowing that there probably isn't a very large pool of people who check this website, and of the people who do check this website, I probably call them and tell them about the news before I have a chance to update this site. But ah well. If you are reading this then awesome! If not then not so awesome. But if you are reading this, then I give you this. Coupon #456879. Mention this coupon number at any McDonalds and receive a free something or other with fries. (Only at participating locations)

Anyways Keep on Trucking
I know I Am.

Sunday, May 9, 2004

APARTMENT

Here is the link to the apartment page

APARTMENT

It isnt completed, but there are some thumbnails that can be accessed. Although if you are on 56 i advise not checking it out as they are not formated to a reasonable compression for 56 users...

Anyways its sunday and im home. I didnt do much yesterday. My apartment community has turned into a ghost town. Graduation was yesterday and the spring semester is over, so a good number of students have gone home for the summer. So i expect the partying for this week to be very minimal. But Im sure by june, all the summer party people will be moving in for their summer stay. Dont know if i will be here or not, if all goes well i will have moved out by June. If it doesnt, then im going to be back on that job train trying to get off somewhere.

A day ago, played some drinking games with the neighbors. I lost a few of them. I enjoyed myself.

Andrea has 2 finals this week, and shes off for the summer. Hehe although, to end her semester she will be having surgery on Friday. They're removing her wisdom teeth. Kinda sucks but cant leave them in there.

Figuring out what to do next is difficult when you dont know what you are doing currently. Guess i should go figure out what im doing.

APARTMENT

Thursday, May 6, 2004

almost forgot

Oh yeah almost forgot, im wearing shorts today. Its going to be 80+ deg today. So yeah ... later

Still no job

Still no job... Im getting a little impatient. If i dont have a new job in another week, im going to have to step up the search again. I kinda slowed down my job activity because i had a really good feeling about the one toy job. But if they dont take me then im going to have to switch gears again and find somewhere else to work for. kinda sucks but c'est la vie. This weekend i have a 2 day weekend. Yay both saturday and sunday. Andrea has finals week next week, which means im going to have to find something to do to occupy my time. I think i've decided on packing up my stuff here in this apartment and get ready to move again. It may be a little premature, being that i dont have a new job nor do i have a new apartment to move to yet, but i think it will make me feel a little better knowing i can just pack up and blink over to somewhere else.

Speaking of nearing the end of a semester... it is almost summer, meaning that there are probably going to be one or two people who will want to visit. this is perfectly fine, just give me a call or email and we will figure something out. Ive been telling myself that once the summer hits i will go back to new york to pick up stuff and visit for a while. A while being a short enough period of time to get drunk, play poker, maybe get a good game of cstrike, and see a rock concert. There is a scene here, but im so caught up in work and finding new work, that my free time is spent sleeping or driving. Driving to no-where in particular, just driving to not have to be anywhere specific.

Hopefully things will take a quick and dramatic turn for the better today.

Well i better go do something of importance before something unimportant comes up.

Tuesday, May 4, 2004

Hello and Welcome.

Hello and Welcome.

Well its been quite some time since i updated this site. No doubt there will be little to no visitors currently checking for updates so this current blog is being made purely to my own satisfaction.

Just had breakfast with new roommate. I still dont really know his name or how to say it, but i think it sounds something like "Sir-Hesh". As long as i keep mumbling it when i say it i think i should be fine. I know i promised some apartment pictures to people for quite some time but i recently lost my desktop pc which had all the pictures and even the website i was working on for the "virtual apartment". Im trying to bring it back to life, but free time to work on my computer is very little, and i find sleep to be more important. By sleep i am refering to the much needed 7 to 8 hours at night, and not the sleep alot of my friends normally associate me with, that being the sleep during classes and when im just bored.

It is May now, and come tomorrow it will be exactly 2 months since i moved out here to illinois from new york. (I am not counting the road trip cause that was sort of a transition period, and who counts transitions anyway).

The job front, well, hasnt been all that great. I am still working the dead end job i got one week after moving here. Everything else is still up in the air. I've interviewed several times at several places, and none as of yet have said "sign on the dotted line, your hired". I am currently looking at this job for a RC toy company, which i am really really anxious to get, but after each interview i have with them, they tell me they need me to come back again for another interview. Don't know if this is the normal way things happen, but i suppose if i get to speak to a different person each interview, I am either moving up in the company before I've even been hired, or the person who interviewed me last was just recently let go. Who knows, either way i want a job, and its taking me forever to find one. This is of course is excluding the job i currently have, of which will probably let go of about 50% of its staff the moment the summer heat hits. (meaning it is a job that for the most part is 50% seasonal, if you understand that then please by all means have a cookie).

It is now 8:56 am, central time, and i have to get in my car in 4 minutes so i can be at work by 9:30. These 4 minutes of course are not really all that important, because even if i do leave in 4 minutes, i will still arrive at work 15 minutes early, which would be perfectly fine if i got paid for being early, but i dont, so really the 15 minutes early that i will have while at work, will be spent sitting in a lunch room looking at a clock, waiting for the minute hand to reach that dooming 6. At which point i will climb a flight of stairs and take my seat at my cubicle. I know this is the norm for many jobs, and probably will be the norm at the job i am applying for at that toy company, but trust me, seasonal work at a place that has an employee turnover of about a week, is not all that great. I look at this job as a means to a paycheck. Its paying the bills, its paying the rent, its basically paying. And im actually saving alot while working here. The cost of living so far, as i see it, is fairly cheap. Of course i am living like a college kid, a step up from a dorm and working 40 hours a week without having to worry about tests or papers, so its easy to pay for things. Im sure anyone anywhere, could sustain themselves the way i have done so far. The question is, is sustaining ones self at a level below what one had expected to live in, worth sustaining at all? Ah and if you ponder that long enough you will know why i really want to work for another company that has more benifits, better management, and a friendlier staff. Not to say that my current co-workers are horrible, in fact they are quite pleasant, I have even made a friend or two. But when saying more than 2 words to your co-worker can get you in trouble, because it is of a non-work related nature, well... how much fun can that be? None at all.

I have though began drawing, I recently brought a pencil and eraser to work, so time has been going by fairly easily lately. I will post a picture or two as i make them, ... this of course is not a promise, because well i have said i would post other pictures before and as of yet, have not done so.

I have also began reading the works of Douglas Adams again, so i expect my blog entries to reflect that. Anyways it is now 9:07 which means, I am late for my 15 minute waste of time. So i better go.

See you all later
Keep On Trucking

Thursday, April 1, 2004

BACK FOR A BIT

BACK FOR A BIT

Will be back in New York from April 8th to April 11th.

Mark your calendars, Friday big hang out day. Figure out something to do!.

oh no.. wait.. april fool you

Sunday, March 21, 2004

My Apartment

My Apartment

I realized that I haven't posted any pictures of my new digs. So i think that over the next week or two i will start posting pictures of stuff out here. This picture is my room. And all my furniture. Pretty sweet set up right? Sleeping is kinda difficult though, always wake up with back aches.

Okay maybe I was just thinking about the ring, when i did that. Hehe it backed fired on me though, I did it so it would kinda weird someone out when they saw the chair in the middle of the empty room, but just today when i walked into the room, Andrea was sitting in the chair looking at me, and yeah, that kinda freaked me out, wasnt expecting her to be in the chair.

New News:
I got a roommate today. His name is Mike. I haven't met him yet but he his stuff into a bedroom on the 2nd floor. I moved into the basement, its cold down here, but its a bit more private. My landlord said he has a girl that is looking for a place, but he doesnt know when she would be moving. Andrea's parents gave me a 15 inch tv today cause I didnt have one before, but I see my new roommate has moved his 21 inch into the living room. I didnt even bother bringing a tv. I mean seriously, do i need one? I dont even have cable. Too bad wireless doesnt ransmit cable tv. (If it does clue me in though).

Went out with Andrea today. We saw Dawn of the Dead. That is a freaking good scarey movie. I think it was done perfectly. Well for a scarey movie about the dead at least. Only one thing i had against the movie, and that was the fact that you never find out why. Other than that, it was freaking good. Had me all watching my back for most of the day... okay maybe even now.

Anyways got to shower and make my lunch for work tomorrow. More on stuff later

KOT

Thursday, March 18, 2004

Pic of the day. Emperor Hole, between jobs

Well its now just about 2 weeks since I've been out on my own. Got to Illinois on March 5th, and now tomorrow will be the 19th. That would be 14 days. To this date, I have myself an apartment and I'm living alone. I have a job, which, to my new York standards doesn't pay very well. But with the cost of living here being a lot less than back home, it only takes me a little less than a week of work to pay for one months rent (which is a good thing since I'm trying to budget myself). This of course is all just short term. The job I'm doing now is customer service, and I really want to do something more administrative marketing related. Maybe something that has more to do with advertising in print or on video media. I would even settle for something in distribution channel management. Well anyways, I'm still out for sale, looking for a job that'll put my degree to work.

My car has been giving me a few scares, with the sounds the engine has been making, so I got her a doctors appointment on Saturday morning. Hopefully the mech will fix'er up real good. I survive out here on my Ford, without her I'd be grounded and seriously screwed.

Finally got my mail box key from the post office, so I can receive mail! I still haven't received any bills yet, so until I have something that will be proof of residence I can't change my car registration to get new plates or get a new drivers license. I have a letter from my power company welcoming me to the neighborhood, but I doubt that would work.

Got a new cell phone with a local phone number out here in the town of NORMAL. Won't give out on my website though, so just email me for it, if you want it. Same goes for the address.

Been eating Bologna sandwiches and cereal. And fried chicken... I can't help it! I love chicken! (Yes I've been Cookin Chicken shaoolie.) Going to go on a date this Sunday, probably going to see Dawn of the Dead, been wanting to see that since the first trailer. Me and Andrea got a bet going to see which will be better, this one or RE2. Love that trailer they got on the website for RE2. "Regenerex, brining Dead cells ... Back... To ... Life..."

Got some pics by email, here is something Emperor Hole put together. This would be Pic number 2 of the day. [Photo] I'm in the box. Jessica stage left, Bobby Up stage left. Goat-T center stage. Picture taken by Emperor Hole, with a camera owned by Jessica.

KOT!

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

Its been about a week since my last confessional.

Its been about a week since my last confessional. I mean update.

Well my resume is still getting sent out there, but the fish just aint biting just yet.

Today was my second day at my job. Been getting training, and by the end of the day today I was just about out of training. As much as I like having my hand held during a job, guess you cant always have that.

I basically am part of a customer service call center for some agricultural catalogs. Its weird cause I basically spend all day listening to these people from all over, Tennessee to Texas. From Georgia peaches to Pine tree farmers named Peabody*. By the end of the day I've adapted some strange accent that I cant shake for a few hours. Call my cell after work and you'll probably end up speaking to Alvin Shamus Smitherson.

Its not paying what I want, but like I said, it'll cover the bills.

Once I land that job that's hit my degree right on target, I'm outtie 5 0. (small side note to ex-Hub Connection employees, had a customer who was mad that he received his order of trees while it was still snowing outside and the ground was frozen and unplantable, he was basically fuming that he received his order too early. (keep in mind that as long as he keeps his trees in like a garage, they wont die) while I was taking this call, and he was just about using as many curses he knew, I couldn't help but think about Mr. Waits or Mr. Dennis Gallagher. Who probably lost millions of dollars thanks to the Hub. No matter what the guy said about his plants, I just couldn't really sympathize, like what I mean is, I didn't really care that he got his plants early. I could care less if they died. The size of his problem just couldn't compare, in my mind, to the type of problems that were faced at the Hub Connection. I mean, maybe if he was talking about his entire crop, which is what keeps food on the table for his family, then maybe I could be like, well that sucks. But,... A bunch of trees? If you cant smoke'em ... feh.

I don't know, I'm sure one day, I'll get a customer on the phone who will explain to me exactly how the entire world is effected by his Maple tree, and then it will all make sense. On that note though, I am learning an awful lot about plants and farming. Like how to take care of perennials. Or if you want a hedge like plant that will keep the neighbors out year round, you are going to want to stick with something not deciduous, but more of an evergreen like a hemlock screen. And when year old Maple Trees are in a dormant state, they basically look like sticks. And if you don't know which way to plant a bulb, you can plant it sideways, and it will find its way.

so its not a complete waste of time, at least after this job I can become a farmer or gardener.

well gtg be back soon

KOT

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

End of Day 3, Job Hunt continues.

Signed up with a temp agency. Wasn't very inspiring though. They basically told me they can get me a job with a company that I already have a job with. So yeah no new ground covered with that. Did receive a call back from "Easter Seals". This might be an opportunity, who knows. Will have to see where that goes.

So its Day 3 of the job hunt. and 5 days since I've been in Illinois. 5 days since I've left New York City, and, well I guess I have an apartment now. Going to move into it on Saturday. Going to be weird living by myself. Alone. Looking at bare walls of white. Hope I don't go crazy. Its weird. The estate, has a quiet time. Heheh. Technically the rules say its "study time". Because most of the tenants are students, there is a time of each day that the volume level has to be down to a minimum. No keggers allowed on the property either. Not that I was planning on it. Did pass some cool looking Frat houses. Maybe I'll start going to parties right? Yeah.... That's probably not going to happen.

I wont post my apartment info just yet, if you're curious email me or catch me when I'm online to ask. Oh speaking of which!

AHHHH how will I survive! At the apartment I wont have any internet access until I set myself up with one. And I don't want to do that until I know I can afford one. If I want dial up I have to buy a telephone line and then buy the service. But if I just get some sort of broad band like Cable modem, I wont have to go through that. I don't know, I guess I will see. The cheapest route will be the best route. Better have some free set up or I'll be pissed.

Oh got new car insurance today. And yeah, im paying like half of what i was paying in new york. Really, really, cheap. I mean if i was in new york alone on my own, with car insurance at my age... id be paying like 300 a month. (hahha like Mike is hahah) But now its more like 300 every year! Ok well maybe every 6 months. But still thats way better. And gas, just about a buck fifty. Cheaper than riding the MTA or buying most water bottles.

Next plan of action: Super Job Mode. Going to have to take it up a notch.

Well see you on the Flip side.

KOT

Tuesday, March 9, 2004

Day 2 of the Job Hunt.

Day 2 of the Job Hunt.

Woke up.

Got Dressed.

Gonna go find a job.

Hungry.

Monday, March 8, 2004

my first crack at job and apartment hunting

Well today is Monday and my first crack at job and apartment hunting. Got 2 very good apartments. I think to kill the burden of finding one I'm just going to stick with these two. Dependent upon what job and how much I'm earning will decide which apartment i choose. To give you a quick over view. One is completely empty cept for some tables and beds, that wont cost much, but there is some maintenance involved (No roommates/or roommates in the future if i want). The other is a 2 bedroom apartment with this good looking girl. She is a manager at a Taco Bell. She has the really nice apartment, but no bed, or anything in the room i would be using. No biggie. If i can get a job that will give me over 400 a week, ill take hers. (heck 300).

Speaking of Jobs
Well went out and got an interview with this company called Owens Nursery. First job of the day, first day of job hunting. and they gave it to me. The catch... I don't think i want it. Going to keep looking in the mean time. Micheal described the job rather well by saying its a "Its a version of the Hub Connection, only in a third world country". Call center, taking orders and stuff, cept no Internet access, and basically non-stop phone calls. I mean i can handle it. But its paying only 8/per. And well to be honest, thats not nearly enough cheddah fo dis playa.
Handed in some applications today. And a few other jobs i went to said the positions where already filled. So oh well. First up at bat for the day and i got a single. The rest were strikes, and one walk. Going to try to hook up with some other companies i saw while driving around. For one, State Farm Insurance.

The Car
Its been making this weird skipping while I'm driving. Slow. Like in parking lots. Don't know what its about, but I'm going to go see either a mech or a dealer tomorrow. Cant risk not having a car. Out here, I can only survive with it.

Things although not too great, seem pretty good. The fact that i CAN get a job, albeit a craptacular one (to quote Mig), is kinda of good news for me. I know i can always rely on it if i need it. And after seeing all these corporate offices while driving around, I have a new level of job ground to cover. Up until this morning, its all been Classified ads. Tomorrow, is going to be all Human Resource departments.

Well Thats about it for now. Going to help Andrea beat Vice City. She is addicted to Resident Evil, but, that game scares me. I don't know how she can do it, she likes to play in the dark.

Grandpa and me couldn't even play tomb raider alone when we were kids. . . eh, I'm still a kid.

~KOT

Saturday, March 6, 2004

Exodus Update: Made it safely. Left Buffalo

Exodus Update:

Made it safely.

Left Buffalo at 8am. Arived 9 hours later. Drove Alone.

Driving alone for 9 hours can give a person a state of temporary insanity. Laughing hysterically and singing to songs very very loud helps a lot.

Buffalo Night:
Judy took me and Grandpa to a place called Duffs, and the Seneca Falls Casino. Or something like that. Was quite amusing, Lost about $20, I think. Grandpa lost like $70, and Judy won, enough to do her laundry. The bright lights, and smoke filled air, made my eyes water, and want to sleep. Oh, at Duff’s, which is famous for its Buffalo Wings, we ordered 50 wings. I ate 16, even though I thought I could do more. And yes the next day I paid for it. Had to stop several times at rest stops to re-enjoy the buffalo wings.

Buffalo to Pennsylvania:
The first leg of the trip wasn’t so bad. Was sort of fun. I was really tired though. But when it started raining like cats and dogs, it kinda of woke me up. Also yelling out loud “Poseidon! Poseidon! What do you want with me?!” helped out a lot. If you don’t get that, well, that’s okay. I didn’t run into any nymphs but I did reach my Penelope. Was quite fun though, seriously, if you can imagine… me alone, in my car… in a torrential down pour yelling out “My name is nobody!” and “Is that all you got Poseidon?!” Well anyways. After about an hour of driving in Pennsylvania, my lack of sleep from the night before caught up to me. I got off at Exit 29 on th I-90 to some place called Wattsburg, just outside of Erie. There was a huge Wendy’s sign. So I figured, a little rest and then a little breakfast. So I parked in the Wendy’s lot, and closed my eyes. Then I thought maybe I should get some food then nap. Got out to go buy something, and it was closed! Guess it wasn’t going to open till 10am, it was only about 9am. So I went to the gas station across the way, and ate something from there, also caught a few winks. I don’t think I stopped again till Ohio. Pennsylvania, from what I saw of it, was rather forest’y. With High hills and bridges that over look rivers. When I crossed into Ohio, it was rather different

Ohio:
Around the time I came into Ohio, Andrea called me and told me that its going to be very windy. And it sort of was. But when I got to Cleveland, it was really really nice. The sun was out, and the heat was on. Hardly any cars on the Interstate, which runs right through it, made driving really easy. Well… maybe there were a lot of cars, but with like 5 to 6 lanes to spread out, I was zipping right past them. Was a easy drive. When I was leaving Cleveland, I got on to what is called the Ohio Turnpike. And this thing… well… its… different. I would have to say the worst part of the drive was here. Think of a long stretch of road, 3 lanes wide. The right and middle lanes for slow traffic (Trucks Bus, etc) and the third for fast. Which ordinarily would be easy, cause just hit like 80 or 75 and you pass everyone. Truckers only go speed limit. (Most at least, I did run into a case of the DUEL, once, one freaking Semi that was going like 85. scared the crap out of me, think big Semi, in your rearview mirror, right ontop of you, even though you are going 15 to 20 over the speed limit) Like I said, ordinarily, but add the fact that there were like 30 mph wind gusts, and you got yourself some scary shit. I was seriously scared for my life sometimes. The first time was what I thought a crazy fluke. Was passing a Semi when a gust of wind hit me just as I passed its fender, the wind slammed into me causing me to veer off the road and almost right into the semi. I thought, whoa close call. Well, it turned out that all of Ohio was going to be like this. Through the entire state, I found myself fighting the wind. Throwing me off course every two seconds. Couldn’t even sit back and relax, cause one gust, and im a gonner if im not paying attention. Every Semi, was a danger zone in itself. I could get thrown into it or it could get thrown into me. Oh and the point of pure adrenaline rush. Well while driving, the wind was kicking up crap into the road. The first tumbleweed I saw and ran into was nothing but a small branch. Heard it tink and tang under my car. But the second tumbleweed, was a full on adult sized version. It came flying over the divider. With a Semi to my right and wall to my left and someone behind me. There was nothing I could do but brace for impact. I watched at this huge Bush cam crashing down on my windshield scaring the crap out of me. I was thinking, this is it! This thing will crack my windshield and probably send me right into an accident taking all these cars around me down with me. Well thankfully, with me going 80 and that tumbleweed probably going 40 itself, and of course the fact that it was all dried up, the only thing I saw was the weed just get obliterated on my windshield into a million pieces. Even left a small branch stuck in my wiper blade, Was going to keep it once I pulled over at the next rest stop, but it eventually flew off. I HATE driving in WIND. Especially when, I still have 6-7 hours of driving ahead of me, and it feels like forever. If you ever drive on the Ohio Turnpike, make sure you have some sort of vice, to keep you amused. You could go crazy on that thing.

Indiana:
Not much of a problem. The weather started to ease up as I entered Indiana, but my wear started getting worse. I think I stopped like 3 times in Indiana at a rest stop, to sleep in my car. Every 15 miles, I found myself wanting to close my eyes so bad. I knew if I didn’t do something about it, id find myself snoozing right into a bumper, or right over into the ditch, or cliff. Without those naps, I probably wouldn’t be alive right now. Got to know your limitations. Do what you gotta do, even it means, napping at a Hardee’s.

Chicago Illinois:
Ahhhh the worst? Nah. Kinda felt like I never left New York….. Okay so Buffalo NY, Pennsylvania, Ohio and Indiana, all these Interstates were basically clear sailing. Once in awhile you ran into a few cars trying to get around 3 Semi Trucks, but once you passed them, you hit 75mph, and your off. But man, oh man, once I got to the city limits of Chicago, on the Interstate, I ran right into BUMPER to BUMPER. And man was it annoying. And of course, it was the same crap as always. Everyone pilling into one off ramp, which happens to be about 20 or 30 miles away (maybe an over exaggeration) causing a traffic jam that feels like it goes on forever. The interstate I was on intersected with another interstate that runs north to south, right into Chicago. So of course, it’s the one that everyone uses. After several hours of agonizing traffic torture, the moment I passed the exit, going like 3 mph, it was right back to 75mph. I really dislike traffic… no wait. Traffic is.. okay…. I dislike the REALLY impatient people who use the on ramps and the fire routes, and every other short cut to cause even more of a mess,

Well anyways once I got onto the final Interstate of my journey, I-57, It was clear sailing again. Was dying for a bed, and there were supposedly 2 more hours between me and that bed. I-57 runs North to South, and goes down to Memphis. (that’s what the sign said) my destination was mile 261. I was around mile 400. (Count down) I was told this trip takes about 2 and a half hours. But I wasn’t going to take that. I hit about 80 mph (speed limit varied from 55 to 65) most of the way down. Some girl in a red Jetta was going about 80 when I was going a easy 70. Figure why not, So I basically tailed her the whole way down. I kinda turned it into a game for myself. If she switched lanes, so did I. If she changed speed, I matched speed. Was like a video game, where you got to escort some battleship. Well it made the 140 miles, go by easily.

9 – 9.5 hours later, I finally reached the town of my destination.

Im sure there is more that im missing, but its late, and I still haven’t slept, so if there is more, it will get added in the next post. Anyways, I don’t think I can drive back to New York. So yeah, This is it for me I think. I don’t ever want to drive something like that without company ever again. So failure here is not an option. Need me a Job and an apartment, and my future will begin to unroll itself.

After im done with this Exodus mumbojumbo the topic will most likely turn into something like “New Life”. Something silly like that.

Well Keep on Trucking.

Thursday, March 4, 2004

Exodus Begins:

Exodus Begins:

7:30am Depart Home do some gas buying, some dropping off stuff, and im on the way by 8:00am

Run into a bunch of traffic up on the Grand Central Parkway towards Triborough Bridge, cuts in about an hour or so.

Stupid Brooklyn-Queens Exwy, Backed up for ever. "BQE = Worst expwy ever!"

Saw a few people pulled over by state cops. Was too affraid to go over 80 cause of them, heck 75. But I hit 90 a few times to get around big Semi Trucks.

Khris fell asleep.

Listened to rock to keep awake

12:00 About 4 hours later, Im in SUNY Albany, in a computer lab typing this. Albany sucks, it looks like crap. All the houses look like they are falling apart. And the campus looks like something out of the NY Worlds Fair back in 1964. But run down like it is today in Flushing Meadows, NY. I wonder how many suicides they have annually. . .

Next stop, Buffalo, NY. When will this wild rollercoaster stop?!

~KOT,

P.S. Khris farted in the car, but i couldnt find the air freshener while driving

Sunday, February 29, 2004

"why I oughtah'....!" "Seeing your smiling fa... [Photo]"why I oughtah'....!" "Seeing your smiling face at the dining table is our pleasure" Pic: Soho, a few blocks from the Angelika Theatre Special thanks to Mig who pointed out the van.

4 days left! And im gone. Going to move out to Illinois. Taking my memories with me, and a decepticon card Ishan gave me.

Some updates: Went to Roosevelt Mall with Khris sometime this weekend. A few laughs occurred during the day. One in particular was khris bumping into a girl, hitting her boobs and being startled and scared that he just embarrassingly caused a scene. And as he was about to apologize his ass off, he realized he bumped into a female manikin wearing a bathing suit. The look on his face... Like a deer caught in headlights... Followed by the look of relief, as if after haunching up a big one. (refer to previous post for definition of haunching). Another notable point, Khris looking for a pair of Sweatpants. For... working out.. of some sort... only to find a $80 sweat pant followed by various other prices. $70, $50, and $30. So of course we scouted out for the clearance rack. Only to find sizes above XXL. What else would be on the clearance rack? The sweat pant endeavors later found its end, several miles away from the mall in a cheap dollar store called DEE DEE.

Exodus news: Mostly everything is packed in boxes now. Currently im doing my laundry in my house for the last time. Everything seems to be going as planned. A few kinks but im sure they will get straightened out. The great give away is still going on, if anyone has any requests of stuff, or wishes to loot, please email me. I let Grandpa Lucious take care of my video camera, and ishan recently got my original vinyl record of the soundtrack to Transformers the movie. William Mooky asked to take a sword, and if I remember to call him to give it to him, i will.

Exodus Priorities.
1. Get a Job
1a. Get a Job as soon as possible
1b. Get a Job as soon as fucking possible.
2. Get an apartment
2a. Get new car insurance
2b. Get Illinois drivers license and car registered with Illinois Plates
3. Make sure car is drivable after trip
4. Start over. I'll keep you updated on further developments

~KOT

Friday, February 20, 2004

when i was a vampire

When i was a vampire, 300 years ago in Transilvania.

I read this once: When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things. Chapter 13, verse 11

and this

Brethren, be not children in understanding: howbeit in malice be ye children, but in understanding be men. Chapter 14, verse 20

yup, still don't know what it means, but, I'm going to start going now, no time for waste. My time here is short. Just played the longest game of Warcraft III in a long time. Was... a big waste of time. But i think it has once again supported the claim that some people are just going to be better at some things than yourself. So i went and uninstalled the damned thing, and now am going to quit wasting time. Like i said, my time here is short. On earth and in Nyc. At least I want my time in nyc to be short. As short as possible. And every time I hit up a game to kill a half hour. It ends up killing more than that. Most of the time, ALOT MORE time than that. And I cant keep doing this. Its time for me to pack up my things and get going. When I find myself again with the abundance of time, these games will find a place again. Counterstrike, warkraft. and most probably, when it gets released, Starkraft. But now... now is the time for me to quit with the games, and try leaving the next. Become an accomplished something, and live a life of stress, taxes, burden of multiple bills, and most of all, do it with the one i love.

I have a room. Its full of junk and old toys. From Magic Cards to video games, to textbooks i read maybe 1 or 2 chapters in. All of which will be getting sorted out, and moved out. If you have any requests for some things, please feel free to post it in the forum, or email me about it.

Ishan has already laid claim to all my transformers and action figures of value, even made a space for them on his mantle already. These things, although i wish i could keep with me forever, will have to be looked over by Ishan in the mean time. He is... Babysitting. After all, my child will someday have to inherit Optimus Prime and Megatron.

As for MTG,. i don't know what i want to do with them, i don't want to sell them. And with my mom thinking of moving to Las Vegas, they wont always have a room to be stored in. Ah well, perhaps they need be sold, like Ishan did many moons ago. Hmmm perhaps, is anyone willing to buy? or maybe become the keeper or caretaker of my menagerie of teenage memories. Every card, with a memory of a moment of laughter or stupidity. Behind the Shivan, nickel Eddie. Behind the Erg Raiders, a "shivering fear". And behind the "'Air Elemental'.... ...... ..... Well its an air elemental..... What harm can it do? ... But if it was a Sera! Ohooooo no... i don't think so!".

My possible Future roommate just emailed me, wants to know when im going to be there. Right now, all i can say is Soon. But i hope to give her a definite date in the next few days.

Goodbye.

Monday, February 16, 2004

Bird Flu?!

The Bird Flu! ... Dagastinos gave me the bird flu! Or wait! ... Maybe I just need to go take a dump... (15 minutes later)

False alarm, no bird flu here.

Happy Presidents Day! Organized more crap today, I have a shit load of pay stubs from all my past jobs. I don't know if I need to keep them, but I guess I wont throw them away till I'm totally sure I don't need them anymore. My filing cabinet crate thing, is packed. Bunch of stuff, like my high school diploma and all my medical bills from my surgery in 2001, are in it. kinda cool. Haven't been this organized, in a long time. But I guess that's because I usually just file my bills next to my monitor in the order that I receive them. And I guess because they are mixed with Chinese food menus and junk mail, I couldn't really call it "filing". But anyways, Tuesday and Wednesday are my last days of work! Then its on to something more. As a reader of this site should know, I'm going to be moving to Illinois soon. But what they might not know, is something my mother dropped on me a day or two ago. And that is she plans on moving to Nevada, some time. Las Vegas specifically. LAS VEGAS! I don't know about that. I mean, my knowledge of Las Vegas may come from only movies and episodes of COPS, but from what I know, its full of drunks, losers, hookers, and pimps. Not to mention the occasional George Clooney and Matt Damon, pulling a heist. But I guess whatever right. Mother doesn't like the idea of me driving to Illinois alone though.

Note: If anyone in new York is willing to take a drive with me to Illinois, (and then find your way back home) please drop me a line. I may be willing to pay for a percentage of your air fare.

Anyways, just saw on the news that Star Jones was proposed for marriage from her boyfriend. Never though she'd ever get married, Well time to go. Later

Saturday, February 14, 2004

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY

Good morning! and HAPPY VALENTINES DAY

Just about to have some breakfast. Today is another organizing day. Going to go give mom a talk now though, about moving and driving and all that good stuff that makes her stomach turn. I guess she is all being a worry wart. Its just a simple drive. Plenty of people do it. They did it jeepers Creepers, Texas Chainsaw massacre, and in that wonderful movie House of a 1000 Corpses.... What bad could happen? Seriously I think she is worrying over nothing. But we all know that if I see a "worlds giant ball of string" (Sam & Max) or a "Spalding's House of Freaks" I might just have to stop in.

Note to Grandpa Lucious: If I stop over in Des Moines, I'll tell you if Sal was telling the truth.

Gonna go have some Spam now with my parent. KOT

Friday, February 13, 2004

Bliggedy Bliggedy Blog.

Bliggedy Bliggedy Blog.

Shiggidy Shiggidy Shwag.

Its the day before Valentines day. Got my boss some flowers, and the boys in the box office nothing. As it should be. Got me some truffles at home though.... ::drools:: truffles ::drools:: (Thanks Babe). Had the past two days off, and did me some organization shopping. Which kinda means for me that I went to staples and got a bunch of crap that should help me organize my life. or something. Also went out with Val to get my car checked. Got all them crazy fluids replaced. The Oil, it came out of the car as if it were some sort of solid black metal. Strange.... Indeed.

I haven't gotten around to it but I really do want to format that "album" section of my website. Right now its just a mishmash of pictures I had on my old website. Kinda want to update it but the whole life thing is kinda bogging me down. But hopefully I will get around to updating, and of course updating the rest of this site. Atleast the blog is working. Although i still cant get the response comments thing to work. But until i do, i guess just post on the MsgForum.

Not to drag though. The end is almost very extremely fucking nigh. Been getting into little arguments with the parental unit though. But im sure things will smooth out. Don't know how to do this whole living on my own thing but IM sure I will figure it out somehow.

that's all I think.

Currently Downloading episodes of McGyver at home.

Oohh yeah!

Oh and Jack eventually got down on his knees. Forgot to mention that.

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

"Twelve Ophelias".

So im working the Auditions for a play called "Twelve Ophelias". Told my girlfriend i wasnt working at night, but then this happened. Shhh. Had a list of 8 people. So far only 3 have showed up. I want to go home, but i have to wait for one more person. And just my luck, that person was able to confirm he would be making it on time for his audition. Aint that just teh suck.

On another note, Ishan told me that i hadnt blogged an incedent that had happened on saturday.

So its me and Ishan working the box office. And the performance is part of a film festival for some guy named Satyijit Ray. A famous Indian director. Well normally when you got to a "film festival" one may believe that they are going to sit in a theater and see a show on 35 millimeter film. Which normally would be the case. But as the people at the www....org (I've decided not to name the company running the production... not the one i work for, some other bootlegged operation) This film festival will be using today's media medium fad of the time. the DVD. Yes folks, its a film festival, in which we charged $10 for you to sit in a school auditorium and watch some DVDs. Well for the laymen, this would be perfectly fine, unnoticeable. I mean who cares, its a movie, in a theater, $10? what else is new, everything is $10s. (The Theatre in which we showed the films, is a very nice theatre mind you, very nice indeed, off-broadwayish huge hall.) But on that day, Saturday, we had several people become upset when they found out they were watching a DVD, and not some restored footage set on reel, to be viewed by those willing to pay. Some wanted their money back. And so we did return their money. I mean it was after all.. a DVD, that probably could have been rented for free at the video archive at your local public library. But what i wish to highlight with this blog is one particular dissatisfied customer. We will call him Jack.

This dissatisfied customer, bought two tickets ($20, and was with his "girlfriend") They had their tickets cut, and sat down in their seats. Shortly after Jack realized that it was a DVD he was about to watch, shown through this projector he was a little furious. He left the theater, came over to the box office (of which me and Ishan had been talking about, probably Transformers) and demanded his money back. No it wasn’t like, excuse me, i would like to know if i could.... no.. it was more liike.... "Give me my money back!" Now Ishan was the one to receive this person. And he said "Im sorry sir the tickets are non refundable" Which is our policy, but management had told us because of the type of performance it was, that we could do it when we felt it was okay to. Jack then went on to state that he wants his money back and that Ishan should give him his money back. Ishan of course, calmly said again "Im sorry it is our policy". Well Jack then began to get a little agitated, and during a volley of comments sent in Ishan's directions, called Ishan a ROBOT. Meaning of course that he just follows orders, no matter what. The man said things like "You know this isnt right, its a damn DVD, and you are charging $10 for it!, i want my money back. This just isn’t right, you know its not right,... and all you can say is its against policy. EVEN though you know this isn’t right! I just gave you my money a minute ago, this isn’t what i was paying for!"

Well at this point i had whispered to Ishan to just give the man his money. But ... Ishan... saw an opportunity that he wished to take advantage of. Ishan let the man squirm in front of his female companion. He let the man go off on his wild tangent about right and wrong and why he should be given a refund. He even apologized for calling Ishan a Robot. To which Ishan replied, "tell you what, I'll give you your refund, if you go back in the theatre and complain for 20 more minutes." I watched and sat there stunned at Ishan's request. 20 more minutes... I mean be reasonable, but at this point you could tell that Ishan was taking much joy out of getting this person to literally beg for his money back.

Well eventually. Ishan decided he had enough fun and gave the man his money back, and in doing so said something like "And never come back here again"

{end} (was that good?)

Monday, February 9, 2004

At work. backstage during show.

At work. backstage during show. Im handling the lights right now.oh for joy. Boss just told me that with my working experience i should be able to work for a casino. Hmmm sounds like a cool idea. Could be managing a certain part of a casino. Maybe the Buffet right?

Anyhoo. Its time to go into this "NYC Exodus" full steam. Going to start packing things up and see my mechanic about my car this week. I have declared my last day of work to be February 18th. Got 5 days off before then, so i got me some time to pack up. No jorb offers yet, but im still applying. Things should pick up once im in the town and can make appearances in suit.

NYC will be a sticker on my suitcase soon enough. Here's to the rest of life, and all things to come. KOT

Sizzler with Grandpa

Just had sizzler with Grandpa. we ate alot of saus... Just had sizzler with Grandpa. we ate alot of sausage. And grits. Had some fruit punch. Grandpa wants to start up a website. An endevour so to speak. Perhaps just a new scheme. but this one seems like it will actually work. Who woulda thought it would take 22 years for Larry Appleton Weng to come up with something good. Well this Balki Bartokamus will follow him till something goes wrong. or the fad goes over.

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I missed out on the ping pong last night, but thats okay, i got some much needed sleep instead.

Last night Ishan and i were working in the boxoffice, i was standing behind the boxoffice window, with a dollar on a string routine going, ishan instead of trying to play "take the dollar" swings the door open into my face. I have a bruise on my lip now. Im hemoraging!

Anyways im in Grandpas room and he is busy "Haunching up." Which if you didnt know, means he is taking a large crap. Definition curtosy of Mike Fric. ... KOT BL42.bmp

Sunday, February 8, 2004

Mr BEan

12:54 Am. Been watching TV. Mr BEan is freaking funny. BBC Tv... yay

This is a bird

Its 2 am. and this is a bird. Thank you for visiting.

Saturday, February 7, 2004

I had a dream last night

I had a dream last night. There was a city, and i ... I had a dream last night. There was a city, and i was able to fly, or atleast jump and float for awhile. The city was about to be flooded by a huge tsunami. I was flying infront of it trying to get away. Eventually I got to a part where i guess the water went calm and there was just land and the edge of a city. Then suddenly Morpheus was there and so was a sentinal. Only Morpheus wasnt Lawrence Fishburn, it was Samuel L Jackson. I also tried to avoid the sentinal. Apparently, my body was kinda like the T1000 liquid steal body, and i could let part of my body come off of me. I ran away from it into this resturant/bowling alley. The waitress thought i was running from the cops, so she hid me under the counter. Eventually the sentinal became a Terminator (The Schwarzenegger type), who sat outside the bowling alley waiting for me. I tried to escape by going under the building. So i was trying to find my way through the foundation of the building which allowed for about 2 feet high crawling space. I think just as i was about to leave the area, i woke up. I wanted to see what happened next, but i guess i remembered i had to go to work, so i didnt bother trying to "re-dream". Good-times

Friday, February 6, 2004

Sapphic

I learned the word sapphic. Neat.

Another day, another blog

Another day, another blog. Today me and Ishan hand... Another day, another blog. Today me and Ishan handled a box office for a film festival. Out of a house of 600. we sold maybe 14 or so tickets. Was quite a busy day. We had to eat tacos, and i had cookies. Yes yes.. just a day in the life of me. And then, ... i came home. and i wrote this. hmmm i need to shower.KOT

Thursday, February 5, 2004

MiMi

[Mimi ? - 1/29/2004] My girlfriend's kitty passed away this week, :-( I liked mimi she was fun and liked to sit in cardboard boxes.

Photo]"Shane's Library" ~ No Questions! Library image was klimed from Artist ~eluoj, deviant since Feb 5, 2004Details: the library of a certain school Category: Indy Art > Anime Subject added care of Pshop

Its 7:56 Am. Nothing i can really think of saying, just i was inspired this morning to create this masterpiece that you see above, and i had to put it on this website before i went to work. haha Its Emperor Hole! doing the job he will be doing until he buys his own aligator farm, Librarian. Transitions are easy when you dont want to be around anymore. Thanks to all those who make that possible on a daily basis. Especially that drunk lady on the J train every night home. KOT

[Photo]Grandpa As Gothic Punk - Halloween of 2003 You can't see it too well, but he has makeup, eyeliner, different colors of hair, and red lipstick on.

Sunday, February 1, 2004

There isn’t anything in this city for me

-- 2.1.04 --(written on the J train) There isn’t anything in this city for me. Music scene? not since grandpa left reality. Friends? I don’t see much of anyone outside of work. I think being on my own will be good for me.It will force me to evaluate my place. Change though is my major reason. The subway, the streets, they all feel empty to me. If I had a job that I loved, what would I have but an income. Shopping, seeing concerts, drinking, and sitting behind a monitor and a mouse staring at crosshairs, eh could be done anywhere. So why not somewhere different? (End of napkin)Why did i choose a picture of grandpa for this update? Well cause i haven't been taking many digi-pics lately, and well i felt that everyone should see that picture. (He's emo, its ok.) Apparently there is a movie out there named "Ping Pong" or something like that. Its about ping pong. It inspired a friend of mine, krystal Steal, to get as many dykes (this is a term used for a certain faction of friends, not a term describing sexual preference) together and go to The New York Ping Pong, umm place in Flushing. So last night Jan 31th, about 14 dykes rolled up into this ping pong joint which was basically full of champion players, all asian. After an hour or two of fumbling embarrassment and loads of fun i finally decided to pick up a paddle and give it a try. I thought it was pretty fun and i guess i was kinda good. But like Grandpa said, this is probably just a 2 day fad and there will never be a ping pong night again, atleast not for a few months. Emperor Hole left for florida this weekend. He is going to go retire. I guess he figured at age 22, that he needs to take it easy in his old life. umm well i dont know what else to say. Keep on trucking[End]

Elphing @ the MET Museum "El Mummy" Coool right? Theres something dead in there. but like Really dead... like dead for like... a long time dead. errr yeah. I took this picture cause Andrea likes these things. Morbid...

Thursday, January 29, 2004

New and improved?

-- 1.29.04 --
New and improved? Probably not. But because of a friendly suggestion, this site is going to be a little bit more Blogerific. Ummm yeah so like what do i do? just talk about my day. Well I did stuff. Went to work. Hung out with my two pals Goat-T and Ishan. (The names have been chnaged to protect the identities of Ethan and Matt) Goat-T was like "wassup" and then Ishan started playing flash games online. Then some wrestling video, laughter, followed by some cool music on some classic rock net-radio station. But not in that exact order. Also had to take some flyers and posters to some resturants up by 28th and Lexington. Otherwise known as a small "little india", this small span of about 5 blocks is nothing but South Asian resturants, one aptly named "Curry in a Hurry". Kinda gave me a down day, damn store owners dont care for a asian looking kid (not of South Asia) coming into their stores trying to put up posters. So they quickly "shuush" you away. Even though the event im trying to promote is probably something their whole family would probably enjoy, I mean even Salman Rushdi came by on Wednesday to check it out.... its gotta be good? Eh I wouldnt know though, havent seen it myself. But anyways, bothered me. And you know that if i walked in there and spoke their language and looked somewhat like a distant cousin i probably would have been well recieved. Bah.

(Current On Winamp - INXS - The One Thing)Is anyone going to even want to read this stuff? I dont know. Lets see what happens if we add some sort of Forum to this site, like Ishan suggested..End.. O.o

[Photo]Most Recent Elphing Roof top view from MET Museum, New York City (Facing South) Stitch of 4 images. Full Image 1738 x 500 / 761 Kbs[Click Here]

Thursday, January 22, 2004

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

--1.22.2004 --

On the way out. Been living my whole life in New York City. And finally after those 22 years, I am going to be leaving my hometown of Woodhaven, and going out to not only a different city, but a different state. Plans are being set, dates are getting scheduled. And soon I'll be on that highway on my way to Illinois.The new resume has finally been completed. updated from my Office Manager / Asst. to General Manager job. And all that good stuff about my Bachelors degree in Marketing Management and Advertising. People been with it, some against it. But its a change that I believe I need. A change that I'm anxious about and have been looking forward to for quite some time.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR January 22, 2004